Becoming a Californian

I am sitting in the hotel lobby of the place that is home for the week. Hubby and I are embarking on a new adventure -- moving halfway across the country and starting a new life in the Silicon Valley area. (Note to self: update blog title.) Hubby has to work, as is his usual agenda one week out of every month. This time, however, I am able to accompany him. Friday was my last day employed, and I am spending my new-found freedom exploring the area and seeking a new home. We're hoping to have an apartment lease signed tomorrow at the latest; I've knocked out 4 of the 8 places on the list, and plan on hitting the other 4 after lunch.

This is a weird day for me. I am no longer on anyone's payroll, and I am scoping out my new "home." Driving around looking for places to live gave me a bit of sadness -- sadness to leave the place that has been my home and where I have planted deep roots, and sadness to realize that I don't even have enough knowledge of this place to know which way is north. (In case you were wondering, it's overcast today, so the sun is no help whatsoever.) I am in a foreign land, doing things that are not on my personal wish list. But God in His infinite mercy and goodness is asking Hubby and me to stretch our boundaries, to lean on His strength instead of ours, to recognize that this move is for His glory and His name's sake, not for our comfort or happiness.

I am struggling with these lessons. I forget that God is working in the lives of people in this area, not just in Texas. I forget that the name and person of Jesus Christ should be my first focus when I wake up in the morning, rather than seeking to be comfortable in my surroundings. I was reminded this weekend of the deep love and grace that the Lord has given us, and that He is sovereign in all things. No, moving to this state is not my first choice of New Years' activities (or at any time for that matter). But all things work together for the good of those who are called according to His purpose (see Romans 8:28-30).

Praise His name that through this challenge and adventure, I will be getting more of His beautiful face!